deoxyribonucleic acid
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this is actually so awkward to write since i frequented this site throughout my y11-12 but im way too paranoid to publish this on any other forum site so here we are LOL btw,, this is a throwaway account
to preface, since year 9 ive had this female friend who i can say i grew super close with (she had never been in a relationship before). i really do cherish our platonically since my last relationship before i met her ended in me having an aromantic attitude towards relationships. ive only had casual hookups since then (that fact will be useful later in the story)
anyways, towards the end of year 10 she confessed that she had some sort of romantic feelings for me which actually took me by surprise, but nevertheless i handled it appropriately by telling her that i simply dont reciprocate those feelings + telling her about the lore of my ex and i. we ended the conversation with a truce on remaining friends and from then on i tried my hardest to watch what i say to avoid any sort of romantic implication i may have subconsciously been giving her. fast foward my 17th birthday she sent me some, almost manic, birthday card confessing how her feelings for me had only grown since my last rejection and her sheer frustration in my non reciprocal tendencies. Also a rant about how i act with sexually and hangout with other women...
once again, i reiterate my predicament to her. i actually sent it as a letter, so ill copy and paste it.
I still wonder how you can so tightly hold onto feelings for me, especially considering all that I've done to you. I won’t sit here & give you a false sense of hope; saying that I see a future, feel a spark— as I simply do not reciprocate those feelings, nor ever will.
The last thing i'd ever want is to break your heart so please don't take my words harshly, I wouldn’t let myself talk to a girl that I make cry so very often.... you're not someone i'd ever want to see sad..... However, I will let you know that my heart doesn’t belong to anyone & I don't believe that will change for the rest of my life, please don’t try to change my mind.
obviously i wouldnt be babbling on this forum if she didnt confess to me again on my birthday this year so yea lol. basically she sent me this
Even though for the longest time I’ve wanted to be more than what we are, know that it doesn’t hurt me anymore. I’ve only grown to love you more over time, which means I’m just so grateful to even be in your life at all, in any way. I trust your judgment on whatever you think we should be and what will keep us close
we basically got on the phone afterwards and i began talking about how uncomfortable her feelings makes me (i acknowledged that its not her fault at all) and her response was that even though she likes me more, shes comfortable with the fact i dont like her (???) but then she said shes confused about how she feels about me anyways since im her best friend. i left that convo with like zero clarity. i genuinely think i want nothing to do with her
but yea basically all my hsc exams are over so i dont have an excuse for me distancing myself from her anymore so im stumped af. ive been holding my responses to her till like 6pm and even then we only converse briefly as opposed to our usual 24/7 texts, so i think shes catching on lol
to preface, since year 9 ive had this female friend who i can say i grew super close with (she had never been in a relationship before). i really do cherish our platonically since my last relationship before i met her ended in me having an aromantic attitude towards relationships. ive only had casual hookups since then (that fact will be useful later in the story)
anyways, towards the end of year 10 she confessed that she had some sort of romantic feelings for me which actually took me by surprise, but nevertheless i handled it appropriately by telling her that i simply dont reciprocate those feelings + telling her about the lore of my ex and i. we ended the conversation with a truce on remaining friends and from then on i tried my hardest to watch what i say to avoid any sort of romantic implication i may have subconsciously been giving her. fast foward my 17th birthday she sent me some, almost manic, birthday card confessing how her feelings for me had only grown since my last rejection and her sheer frustration in my non reciprocal tendencies. Also a rant about how i act with sexually and hangout with other women...
once again, i reiterate my predicament to her. i actually sent it as a letter, so ill copy and paste it.
I still wonder how you can so tightly hold onto feelings for me, especially considering all that I've done to you. I won’t sit here & give you a false sense of hope; saying that I see a future, feel a spark— as I simply do not reciprocate those feelings, nor ever will.
The last thing i'd ever want is to break your heart so please don't take my words harshly, I wouldn’t let myself talk to a girl that I make cry so very often.... you're not someone i'd ever want to see sad..... However, I will let you know that my heart doesn’t belong to anyone & I don't believe that will change for the rest of my life, please don’t try to change my mind.
obviously i wouldnt be babbling on this forum if she didnt confess to me again on my birthday this year so yea lol. basically she sent me this
Even though for the longest time I’ve wanted to be more than what we are, know that it doesn’t hurt me anymore. I’ve only grown to love you more over time, which means I’m just so grateful to even be in your life at all, in any way. I trust your judgment on whatever you think we should be and what will keep us close
we basically got on the phone afterwards and i began talking about how uncomfortable her feelings makes me (i acknowledged that its not her fault at all) and her response was that even though she likes me more, shes comfortable with the fact i dont like her (???) but then she said shes confused about how she feels about me anyways since im her best friend. i left that convo with like zero clarity. i genuinely think i want nothing to do with her
but yea basically all my hsc exams are over so i dont have an excuse for me distancing myself from her anymore so im stumped af. ive been holding my responses to her till like 6pm and even then we only converse briefly as opposed to our usual 24/7 texts, so i think shes catching on lol
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