Could have sworn I had a post here, I suppose my wording was objectionable.
Good sir, in response to your query I would like to take this opportunity to share the "Kid's Helpline" telephone number with you. They will assist you with the dire situation with which you are faced, and will do so in a professional and confidential manner. You can avail yourself of this assistance by calling 1800 55 1800.
It seems to me that the Internet, despite the vast array of information available, is not an appropriate medium by which more sensitive concerns can be addressed adequately. The situation which you have described seems to be such a case. They may also be able to assist you with the feelings of inadequacy which you have alluded to in your original message.
God bless, take care, and I wish you a speedy recovery, as I am only too familiar with the stress which this unfortunate set of circumstances has placed upon both yourself and your family.