I want to find what it is that I value so much, that I forget that I even exist. Meaning that all I am are simply the experiences that come my way on my path towards my ultimate goal, which is also linked to that unwavering, absolute value.
I’ll just say it now, I’ve been depressed for the past 4 years.
Not from sadness, but from numbness.
I’m being so open about it, even with friends reading this, since it is FINALLY no longer a concern.
As for whether or not I’ll tell my family, well, I don’t care about bringing up past events anymore than I need to.
I’ll just act more energetic, and they should get the idea.
HOLY MOTHER OF GOD!!! I’M ALIVE! I’M ACTUALLY ALIVE!!!
I’m going to cry, I’M ACTUALLY GOING TO CRY!!!
I’M ‘ME’!! MEEEEEE!!!!!!
It took SOOOOO long, BUT I’M BEI MY HONEST AND PURE AND AUTHENTIC AND YOUNG AGAIN!!
I’M ACTUALLY CRYING WHAT THE HELLLLL
I LOVE YOU ME!! I’LL NEVER LOOSE MYSELF AGAIN, I PROMISE!!!
4 long years…
Philosophy and Psychology are dumb to me now.
Everything I learn, results in its self destruction.
It took me 3 months of studying Buddhism to question why it’s so hard to do something so simple as a kid while as an adult/teenager. And the answer is simple, OVERTHINKING.
ok, this is the last I’ll talk about any of my ideas like THIS, since I genuinely don’t like it.