realizing that all my goddamn humanities will not affect me past y10,,,, so calming. *looking at the 7 assessments/projects i have within the next 3 weeks. 4 of them are humanities.*
i have like. 3 major projects due in 2 weeks. most of which i have barely done anything for. one of which is a speech. and here i am,,,, stressing over next year's eng-adv. materials,,,,,,,, how do i find myself doing everything but important schoolwork,,,,,,
every week i promise myself i'm going to be productive and every time i forget i have time blindness and greatly underestimate just how long it takes for me to do anything ever. i have finished one (1) overdue homework over the weekend. i finished it last minute. i think i am going to die in y11
also need to get this off my chest: last term made one of the best poems i've ever done. excessive 4 pages of doublespaced freeverse (+ fandom-related!!) all for an ungraded for-fun assignment. english extension & advanced teachers gave thumbs up. did so well during in-class recitation but was too scared to ask if i could recite it in year-wide poetry slam. i am still seething :head in hands: