No problem.lala2 said:Thanks pritnep I suppose it's both, but especially the job. The uni work--I'm enjoying what I'm learning, the whole physiology side of things anyway (and I suppose I can't expect any better than pharmacology with thousands of drug names to remember) and med chem's getting better.
Plus, I should mention that my first job is FUN....and it's conditional on me staying at uni. Now I know it sounds ridiculous to stay at uni just for a job but oh my gosh if you knew....and plus I'm earning a lot of money from it...let's just say more than $25/hr and it would take me at least 5 years out of uni to earn that kind of rate if I worked on a part-time basis at a pharmacy. Plus I can think of a few more DEGREES I would like to do for interest as well so why not? So I might not end up working in pharmacy....for a while anyway at least.
Maybe it's the juggling too, though I have put all volunteering and stuff on hold just until I can settle into the study routine, so it's just been me, uni and tiredness. I just don't want to leave on bad terms if I know that I have a fighting chance of at least making up for it and maybe leaving on neutral terms, but I don't wanna risk the situation of he STILL not thinking that I've worked hard enough over the four weeks he's given me (and I have consciously put in all the effort I can) when I could just leave now because the situation isn't getting any better, if you get my point? Oh why I can't I tell the future?
Dilemma, dilemma.
Ok, so you like the uni work it's just you don't like your current job and because it's in the same field it's probably leading you to hate/dislike/think the course isn't the right fit for you. Maybe.
I mean this is just one type of job in that field, maybe all it could take for you is finding the right job, with a better work environment, something more that your interested in and good at in that field and with better pay/conditions.
This first job seems to be your escape, it has the best of both worlds - it is fun and it pays well. Certainly is something you want to continue with. So maybe if you couple that with the fact that you like your uni degree and some of the courses you can have the best of both worlds. Maybe see if you can find another job (to replace 2nd job) in a different aspect/field of pharmacy. Or see if you can get a trial/workplace whatever it is that will help you work out where you want to be. Because it should be a shame if you put all this work into a degree and come out not wanting to do the job even if you like the degree if you don't want to do the end job it's not exactly worth while (in long term aspect here).
As for the pharmacy job I would probably think about having an honest chat with your boss. See if they notices your changes in your attitude/work, anything else you can do to improve, what more they want of you etc. I'm sure that would speak volumes that your wanting to go that extra mile rather then running the clock down and bowing out. If all else fails talk to them, see if they know of other jobs going in some aspect of pharmacy/have any ideas, get a reference - ensure that you end things well with them. Because you never know you could end back there/need them.
Good luck. I hope my rambling is helpful.