This is gonna be a little long so forgive me.
We dated for 7 months and she was my first proper girlfriend, and she will always be the one I lost my virginity to and the one whose virginity I took.
Its been 3 months now since we've broken up.
The reasons for ending it were varied but after a month after bein dumped i realized what was wrong. I wasnt looking after my self, and that she didnt feel like she was in a relaitonship because I grew a little distant. In my defence After the uni exams I needed sometime for my self. bEcause I just felt lost.
And She cheated on me a few weeks f=before the break up and i forgave after 2 days of not talking. Only to have her dump me a few weeks later. 5 days before my bday.
I didnt handle it well. I up for like tried calling her for like 3 weeks before giving up.
In the sense I thought that if i gave her time to miss me, she'd eventually call me up. So I thoight Id use this time to improve my self. I lost weigt, got fit, gave up smoking, and reduced my drinking levels. After a month I called her up to see how she was doing, she was cold and distant and small talk was just dead, so I just said sorry for the way I behaved and apologized for the way things ended.
She forgave me but said it wasnt alright yet. And when I asked if we could be friends, she said no...not yet, she stillneeded time.
At the time i didnt know why, but on Chinese New years i found out that she was then offically dating this hardcore religious guy whose name is Christian, who had been hitting on her while we were dating. and that they had been seeing each other 3 weeks after dumping me. I was crushed. and I gave up on the idea of trying to get back with her and continued to improve my self.
Im kinda glad that she broke up with me. I was forced to mature my out look on relationships and just life in general and as a whole has made me a better person, more focused on those I love and my goals. I hav her to thank for thses changes, that is not to say that it wasnt hard. I ve been taking it one day at a time..and actually found my self having fun with my friends.
So pretty much Im doing fine without her. And she can call me up if she has something to say. But til then Im fine an while I do miss her and sometimes wish she would come back and call me...I know itll be short lived and not the same as before. She has issues to sort out with faithfulness before she can talk to me about a relationship. But as I said I miss her and think about her sometimes when Im alon with my thoughts, But im moving on and Im gonna fin another her. Nicer and cuter too. and til then Im just gonna enjoy life til i find the next flame.
on another note. Her new BF looks ugly and had to ask her mum permission to date her. At least Im happy in the fact that I look better than him and I have the thread from 4chan to prove it lol. And the fact that Im not a religious nut like him. Hopefully she'll realize her mistake. But Until then I pray at night "Dear god, I pray to you tonight as I do each night, that you watch over Amy, make sure shes happy, safe and healthy. And make sure no harm comes to her, and look after her in the way that I couldnt when I was with her. I pray that her new partner doesnt hurt her and that she finds happiness in this world and maybe one day we can talk again".
Sorry for the long post but thanks for letting me vent a little
