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ok i just lost all my motivation for english (1 Viewer)

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When i was picking subjects with my english teacher last year, she told me extension english was more focused on essay writing and wasnt a higher level than advanced.. Then yesterday, on here i found out that extension is the higher level.

I know this is a silly thing to worry about but all of a sudden i feel nauseous and upset? I’m wondering why i wasnt good enough to go into extension and now im terrified of my english work and i dont want to touch it.

All my teachers made it out like i was incredible and i won 2 competitions so i was starting to wonder if i was a decent writer, but as i was letting myself believe that, i suddenly feel like ive been winging it this whole time and i dont even deserve to be in advanced. One of my friends is also in extension and i cant help comparing myself.

What should i do?
 

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Tl;dr Do you genuinely have a passion for English? If not, I would highly suggest dropping English Extension and taking another subject that you are interested in, even if it means taking 13 units.





You sound like you're passionate about (creative?) writing (do essays have competitions for high school kids? idk tbh), but English extension is mostly about essay writing (there is one creative task though) and a complete, flourishing (?) understanding of multiple texts, such that you can spontaneously and accurately argue a viewpoint with enough evidence to back it up. It's much deeper than English advanced, and Eng ext deals with things like the psychology of characters and etc.

I used to be good at a really niche activity (sorry not saying here because I don't want to be sleuthed out by my former classmates lol I drop plenty of anecdotes and my personal experience here) but I was somewhat like you, putting so much pressure on myself to do well because others told me I was good at it. Eventually I spiralled down with a bad attitude and no improvement for seven years. (No I didn't break any mirrors) (I'm ok now. I took a total break for two years (excuse was studies, partially true haha) and I am gradually resuming because I have time after hsc and before uni.)

I was forced into extension english in year 11 after they put me in 13 units (which I told them not to) and a subject which was my third reserve (they made everyone pick three reserves). I fought to drop that third reserve subject and they corralled and manipulated me as they do all the time, rip. They said either it's that subject or english extension. (I don't want to diss that subject, I didn't like the content but it's my opinion only) So my hand was forced and I hated english extension so much (I also hated english advanced and english in general lol it's much harder to do well in than in maths tbh).

I later realised a teacher I had for another subject was very nasty and biased towards the large portion of the class who had lots of achievements externally, and deliberately gave me and another kid (not as good as the favoured lot but still good) failing marks to make us drop (which did happen btw). So I had to drop to 10 units and was very nervous about it especially because I got a borderline fail mark for my first english hsc task and an average mark for the second hsc task. (I needed 97+ atar) Even though it paid off (thanks to my hard work and sacrificing my social life, no thanks to the haters including my high school), I occasionally thought about what could happen if I could take a subject I wanted to take, and continue it into year 12 instead of eng ext and dropping. (Even though realistically it wouldn't happen because my school's subject choices are very limited unless the people who want to do a subject which isn't maths, english, science, history or economics are model students and guaranteed band 6 etc etc)

(Btw even though english nearly drove me to an extreme decision, in the end I did well despite my shitty school ranks. I got a private tutor for english and my eventual (aligned) exam mark was 92/100. Take that, [insert my high school])
 

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Tl;dr Do you genuinely have a passion for English? If not, I would highly suggest dropping English Extension and taking another subject that you are interested in, even if it means taking 13 units.

You sound like you're passionate about (creative?) writing (do essays have competitions for high school kids? idk tbh), but English extension is mostly about essay writing (there is one creative task though) and a complete, flourishing (?) understanding of multiple texts, such that you can spontaneously and accurately argue a viewpoint with enough evidence to back it up. It's much deeper than English advanced, and Eng ext deals with things like the psychology of characters and etc.
Sorry I should’ve been more clear, I’m in advanced and I feel inferior because I’m not in extension, which I’ve learnt is the higher one.

I can develop a passion for anything really, but an important part for me is that I’m succeeding/receiving praise/feeling like I’m acing it. Being in advanced, now finding out it’s not the best I could’ve been, makes me really ill..

I wish your school was more accommodating to your preferences though :(
 

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I’ve emailed my old English teacher to hopefully understand more what I’m lacking... or at least give me back confidence to do my work
 

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Sorry I should’ve been more clear, I’m in advanced and I feel inferior because I’m not in extension, which I’ve learnt is the higher one.

I can develop a passion for anything really, but an important part for me is that I’m succeeding/receiving praise/feeling like I’m acing it. Being in advanced, now finding out it’s not the best I could’ve been, makes me really ill..

I wish your school was more accommodating to your preferences though :(
Eng ext and eng adv are very different. Although if not being in ext eng makes you feel like that, I'd give it a try. It's probably still not too late to switch subjects.

Haha it's a top 20 selective school with ~1000 students and they are geared towards maximising their band 6's to look good in the newspapers. At least it's over for me and I'm never going back there hahahaha
 

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Eng ext and eng adv are very different. Although if not being in ext eng makes you feel like that, I'd give it a try. It's probably still not too late to switch subjects.

Haha it's a top 20 selective school with ~1000 students and they are geared towards maximising their band 6's to look good in the newspapers. At least it's over for me and I'm never going back there hahahaha
sorry if this is an obvious question but is extension something you do alongside an english class or is it a different class on its own? I think i will look into changing my subjects though

amen :/
 

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English extension has its own timetabled classes separate to english advanced. You might have different teachers for advanced and extension.
 

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sorry if this is an obvious question but is extension something you do alongside an english class or is it a different class on its own? I think i will look into changing my subjects though

amen :/
Ye unlike maths adv and math ext which can be very integrated and built on one another, eng adv and eng ext are like two different subjects.
 

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