Cykologi_gal
Psyche...
I'm currently in a relationship where both of us don't have contact with eachother - his family, uni, etc etc - we can't even see eachother due to the bad timing of our uni times - we go to diff. unis.
He says he's crazy about me and he is - poems and emails, even though there's only talk. I'm accepting that his strict circumstances prevent him from maintaining a "normal" relationship with me - he can't even talk on the phone with girls! Let alone have a gf.
On the other hand - not so long ago, I posted a thread in which I was torn between him and another guy. To cut a long story short, I'm beginning love the 2nd guy - he has much more freedom and flexibility. We've also been friends for 5 years - thru which he's been secretly loving me. He would do little things - he went out and got batteries for me on my 18th gathering without anyone asking him to. I trust him, there's concretness in the (potential) relationship.
So technically, I've been two-timing for a little while - I'm seriously going to stop. I feel so guilt-ridden and it's unfair on both of them either.
Should I wait and give the first guy another chance? Should I wait for the summer and see if he actually acts upon his loving words? The truth is - this 2nd guy...well, I know he's not the right one either, I've listed many "fatal" reasons, yet I'm not feeling the love in this current relationship.
I've drawn myself away from MSN - 'cos that's how we communicate. I've had space...and well, how would you break up with someone? What do you say? I do care about him...I know I should do it in person, but what do you say? What if he gets angry? (I've mentioned break-up several times and have tried to tolerate it)...but it just seems like an empty relationship to me even though he wants to keep it going forever and ever.
When's a good time to stab someone?
*weep*
He says he's crazy about me and he is - poems and emails, even though there's only talk. I'm accepting that his strict circumstances prevent him from maintaining a "normal" relationship with me - he can't even talk on the phone with girls! Let alone have a gf.
On the other hand - not so long ago, I posted a thread in which I was torn between him and another guy. To cut a long story short, I'm beginning love the 2nd guy - he has much more freedom and flexibility. We've also been friends for 5 years - thru which he's been secretly loving me. He would do little things - he went out and got batteries for me on my 18th gathering without anyone asking him to. I trust him, there's concretness in the (potential) relationship.
So technically, I've been two-timing for a little while - I'm seriously going to stop. I feel so guilt-ridden and it's unfair on both of them either.
Should I wait and give the first guy another chance? Should I wait for the summer and see if he actually acts upon his loving words? The truth is - this 2nd guy...well, I know he's not the right one either, I've listed many "fatal" reasons, yet I'm not feeling the love in this current relationship.
I've drawn myself away from MSN - 'cos that's how we communicate. I've had space...and well, how would you break up with someone? What do you say? I do care about him...I know I should do it in person, but what do you say? What if he gets angry? (I've mentioned break-up several times and have tried to tolerate it)...but it just seems like an empty relationship to me even though he wants to keep it going forever and ever.
When's a good time to stab someone?
*weep*
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