Hi againThanks Ashabella. My problem doesn't really invovle with depression due to the HSC though. It's just that I can't befriend with anyone. In the past I've tried to sit with many different groups, only to find out that I'm so different from my friends in some ways. I can neither bear the way they speak nor emphathise with their concerns. I always feel better when I stay in the library doing my works during lunch or recess.
What worries me is that I start talking to myself (indistinctly) so more often that it's like muttering all day and wherever I go. Maybe there's something wrong with me psychologically; but I'm too scared to see a doctor or
Maybe the problem is not as serious as I thought and I'm just too socially inadequate that I can't be integrated into any group at all...
Oh, I didn't actually make the thread with the purpose of depression DUE to the HSC it was more about dealing with depression (no matter what the cause) during the HSC.
Hmm... well I promise you that your problem is significant. If you are having trouble connecting with people, if you are withdrawing from others and if you are generally unhappy, then there is definitely a problem. All of those things you mentioned are symptoms of depression. So I would really encourage you to look into seeing a doctor or counsellor (remember seeing a counsellor can be free and anonymous at community health centres).
Why don't you ring around and try and find a doctor that bulk bills? That is, unless your happy to go with a doctor that is privatised? Or alternatively you could google your local community health centre and book an appointment to see a counsellor there.
OR you could call a help line. They can help you connect with these services too. And can be advocates for you during the process. And of course, you can chat with a counsellor there
It's really hard when you can't connect with anyone. It can be really really frustrating and it's no wonder that it makes you feel lonely.
Maybe you're talking to yourself because there is a lot of thoughts going through your head? Maybe there are just so many thoughts that you end up unconsciously speaking them in order to allow yourself to make better sense of them? What do you think?
Just so you know, you're not crazy. Maybe you are depressed, but that doesn't make you a loony. I promise
It must be kind of disheartening hearing some of the rude comments people have posted in this thread. Just try to remember that the people posting those comments really have no idea what they're talking about (clearly..) and they're probably just bored. I assure you that the majority of people do understand depression and they do realise that it can have a very significant impact on someone's life. Professionals, such as doctor and counsellors are very aware of this. So please do not fear that there would be any judgement cast upon you if you decided to access one of these services.
I really hope you manage to muster up the courage to do something about this. Because, even though it seems scary, it will be worth it in the end. You can feel better you know. And one day you will be able to connect with people with more ease. Accessing support WILL help you in this process, and hopefully stop the difficult feelings you are feeling now, from getting any worse.
Think about it ok. This is possible. You can feel better, you just have to take the necessary steps.
And after all... you've got nothing to loose and everything to gain!
Take care chook
xo