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I’m going to test to see how long I can “stay in the mood” for something, which I learned yesterday is the equivalent of being in a trance or being hyper-immersed which is what I’ve been seeking, and I will do so until I get sick of the activity before I start to see what I can do within myself to increase my ‘enjoyment endurance’ and reset the experience to get back into the mood without feeling a sense of repetition.
This is what I need to do if I want my goals to be fulfilled.
Knowing that the activities I can handle are currently faced pace, it’s because my tendency to listen to music and being stimulated by all sorts of face-paced things that rush me are putting me into a mood different from what my goals require me.
I need to go slower paced to get into its specific mood, going slower is faster because it’s sensible.
So, I’ve done this before with trying to platinum Demon Souls in a day through an all nighter and doing livestreams for the sake of enjoyment endurance for the game Metaphor Re:Fantasio and my Blender practices, but at least now I know WHY I thought I needed enjoyment endurance, it’s to practice staying in ‘a trance’, to stay in the mood.
I’ll be merging my experience with souls-likes with Blender as the activity to really test myself to make sure that this decision of mine isn’t second guessed as a self-imposed conformity, and is instead a sincere desire I am hyper-immersed in as a phase of my life.
(I livestream these marathons, but it’s in person channels just as how this BOS account is personal for me to curate my thoughts. This is this and that is that, so I don’t feel like sharing…)
Edit: nvm, there are more appropriate times for this. I don’t expect myself to have the energy to do a marathon right now, but I do expect myself to do so from the moment I wake up tomorrow, and I expect myself to wake up early/on-time to start.
The schedule I will have and finally stick to will be of me from 9AM-3PM doing nothing but my Blender projects, and after that I have the free time for the other things I am in the mood for and can only be in the mood for during those moments (if I give into them during my work hours, that’s literally instant gratification and that’s not good because of dopamine levels being a thing).
This is what I need to do if I want my goals to be fulfilled.
Knowing that the activities I can handle are currently faced pace, it’s because my tendency to listen to music and being stimulated by all sorts of face-paced things that rush me are putting me into a mood different from what my goals require me.
I need to go slower paced to get into its specific mood, going slower is faster because it’s sensible.
So, I’ve done this before with trying to platinum Demon Souls in a day through an all nighter and doing livestreams for the sake of enjoyment endurance for the game Metaphor Re:Fantasio and my Blender practices, but at least now I know WHY I thought I needed enjoyment endurance, it’s to practice staying in ‘a trance’, to stay in the mood.
I’ll be merging my experience with souls-likes with Blender as the activity to really test myself to make sure that this decision of mine isn’t second guessed as a self-imposed conformity, and is instead a sincere desire I am hyper-immersed in as a phase of my life.
(I livestream these marathons, but it’s in person channels just as how this BOS account is personal for me to curate my thoughts. This is this and that is that, so I don’t feel like sharing…)
Edit: nvm, there are more appropriate times for this. I don’t expect myself to have the energy to do a marathon right now, but I do expect myself to do so from the moment I wake up tomorrow, and I expect myself to wake up early/on-time to start.
The schedule I will have and finally stick to will be of me from 9AM-3PM doing nothing but my Blender projects, and after that I have the free time for the other things I am in the mood for and can only be in the mood for during those moments (if I give into them during my work hours, that’s literally instant gratification and that’s not good because of dopamine levels being a thing).
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