oh hello thread. hmmm i think i can reply to this.
i have attempted suicide a number of times, with one very serious attempt where i came *this* close to dying. in my opinion, and from what i personally feel, it is kind of the easy way out; however (!) this is after realising that every other possible solution for one's problems shan't work. it's easy because, obviously, death is simpler than having to suffer a life that is painful for the sake of others. it is also selfish in this regard. however, we all ultimately have to look after ourselves, and our lives are our own to dictate. also, the pain is often caused by those people who shall apparently be affected by the suicide anyway. for me, i almost wanted to die just to upset some people and show them physically how much they hurt me inside.
anyway, i digress.
i do not, however, think that suicide is the easy option when you look at the big picture. it may seem as though it is because people could see it as being someone reacting to one issue by ending it all, but it's usually a build up of stresses that eventually must come to a head. i thought about death and all the different and grim ways of killing myself for years before i actually decided that i had reached the end and that there was no longer any point in trying alternative methods of fixing my pain. it's not something that anyone wants to do, i don't think; but it feels like the last and only "solution".
the methods of killing oneself are not pleasant either. it's horrible and painful and, if one fails, there are often physical scars/complications left to deal with.
also - re: failing a suicide attempt, that's another thing that makes the whole ordeal tough to go through. there's always a chance that someone will save you, and you have to worry about the utter humiliation of it all afterwards.
i guess my point is that you really have to understand that it takes a lot for someone to attempt suicide (which is not easy), but compared to the pain that they are living with it is the easier option. does that make sense? :s
i have attempted suicide a number of times, with one very serious attempt where i came *this* close to dying. in my opinion, and from what i personally feel, it is kind of the easy way out; however (!) this is after realising that every other possible solution for one's problems shan't work. it's easy because, obviously, death is simpler than having to suffer a life that is painful for the sake of others. it is also selfish in this regard. however, we all ultimately have to look after ourselves, and our lives are our own to dictate. also, the pain is often caused by those people who shall apparently be affected by the suicide anyway. for me, i almost wanted to die just to upset some people and show them physically how much they hurt me inside.
anyway, i digress.
i do not, however, think that suicide is the easy option when you look at the big picture. it may seem as though it is because people could see it as being someone reacting to one issue by ending it all, but it's usually a build up of stresses that eventually must come to a head. i thought about death and all the different and grim ways of killing myself for years before i actually decided that i had reached the end and that there was no longer any point in trying alternative methods of fixing my pain. it's not something that anyone wants to do, i don't think; but it feels like the last and only "solution".
the methods of killing oneself are not pleasant either. it's horrible and painful and, if one fails, there are often physical scars/complications left to deal with.
also - re: failing a suicide attempt, that's another thing that makes the whole ordeal tough to go through. there's always a chance that someone will save you, and you have to worry about the utter humiliation of it all afterwards.
i guess my point is that you really have to understand that it takes a lot for someone to attempt suicide (which is not easy), but compared to the pain that they are living with it is the easier option. does that make sense? :s
