Suic1de: "Either way there are other people in the world (Men/Women) that would be in the same position at 30/40 so you aren't alone."
And that scares the shit out of me. Thanks for the other advice though.
The_Authority: "God, you dont know what your missing out on. The whole world seems a different place when something is happening!!!"
Don't fucking remind us! (no offense intended)
williamc: "Talk shit, LIE. Lie until your sucking face."
hmm I'll consider it last resort.
bella-mia: "i'd rather have friends than boyfriends."
leisl1990: "anyway, life without another one isn't too bad at all."
Not when your evolutionary urges are constantly screaming at you with such ferocious, insatiable energy. There's this repressed alpha beast inside, fearless, vigorous, spontaneous, adventurous, and yet he presents to the world as a "nice guy" who'd never acts on his instincts for fear of embarassment due to unresolved personal inadequacies. I don't want to lie, cheat, pressure anyone into anything. I just want things to flow naturally, enjoying the mutual buildup of emotional and sexual tension within a budding courtship, the push and pull. I want the tensions AND I want the releases. I want it real. It's maddening. Fucking HELL, it's maddening.
laceytutu: "I'm a girl, going on 18 and never had a boyfriend Or a girlfriend I guess haha! But hey, I figured if it's meant to be it'll come and it'll work Someday. "
I too figured it'd come one day went it's "meant to be", but "meant to be" is meaningless, I've come to realise that much. Everything worth something we create for ourselves. As with other life desires, pursue it, chase it, risk it, for ourselves and for those we desire to share it with (at least I'm telling myself this at the moment).
bella-mia: "somedays can be hard, but others are just great fun!"
Some days sure, life goes on fine. Intellectually and health-wise, I have periodic fulfillment. But there comes many a day when this unfulfilled aspect brings me emotionally and mentally unglued. It's slowly eating away at who I am (and who I can be).
I'm sexually self-repressed and loathe the anxious part of me responsible for this state of affairs. Like others out there, I just can't talk to women in any flirty or intimate respect. Conversations are kept completely unfun and impersonal. That way I appear to remain (for the most part) cool, calm and collected. I'm afraid to be seen afraid.
I know I need to take calculated (read: worthwhile) risks. I just don't know what will work, where to start, what will take me further to improving.
I want the alpha beast out of its cage.
*ends purge*